Day 368 - Starting to accept that my birth plans will unfold differently

Dear Simba,

Today has been a calmer day for me. I spent most of it listening to podcasts and pottering around, trying to relax. I have some lower back pain, which I hope is a sign that things are starting to move, though still no contractions yet.

I’ve been reflecting on my hopes for a natural birth, but I’m starting to let go and accept that things may unfold differently. Tomorrow, I’m scheduled for a membrane sweep—if my cervix is soft enough. Let’s see if I can have it done and whether it might trigger labor.

If not, then a Caesarean might be on the cards this week. I dread the idea of major surgery, but I’m trying to focus on gratitude. At the end of the day, the most important thing is bringing your sister safely into the world, no matter how it happens.

On another note, I’m a bit concerned about one of your daddy’s moles, as it seems to have changed. I want to make sure he gets it checked as soon as possible this week, just to rule out anything worrisome.

Off to bed now—who knows, maybe tonight will be the night.

Love always,

Mummy